That moment your life changes.
That moment that changes your life.
That moment you love someone more than you love yourself.
That was the moment we gave our son up for adoption and the moment I was left bare. A wide-open space that would forever be empty.
There are moments that define you as a person, moments that prove just how strong you are, moments you push yourself to keep going forward when all you really want to do is give up. It was in one of those moments when I reached out and found him waiting for me.
When Shelby Calder left home fifteen years ago, she never planned on returning to the Alaskan town she left behind. But after the death of her grandfather and a bitter divorce, she hopes going home will be a fresh start for her and her ten-year-old son.
Zach Watters has made a lot of mistakes in his life. But when he sees Shelby Calder, looking more beautiful than ever, standing outside her childhood home, he promises himself that letting her go won’t be a mistake he ever makes again.
Some things never change and love is one of them.
I didn’t think it was possible to love a book as much as I loved the first book of the series, Fighting to Breathe.
Shelby returns home after she finds out about the death of her grandfather and has to deal with the past that she has been running from for fifteen years. Zach has been stuck in the past and when he sees Shelby he sees a second chance at having the life he’s always wanted. But will the decisions of their past keep them apart?
What I love the most about this book (and pretty much all the books by Reynolds) is the fact that the books are quick and right to the point. I can read this book when I am hanging out at the pool or relaxing somewhere on vacation. I love these kinds of books because they aren’t just guilty pleasures, but they are the ones that sneakily become those go to books that you read when you are in between books. In my case, I have read the first book so many times that I have practically memorized it. I have a feeling this book is going to be the same.
Zach is not just the alpha male that we have come to love from Reynolds, but he is also kind, sweet, and insecure. He’s the first man that Reynolds that has written that has been insecure and I love the direction that she took with him. He is not sure of where he stands with Shelby and he knows that the decisions that he made in the past may have cost him the love of his life.
The only thing that this book didn’t have that I wished it did, was more about the character of Samuel. We know right from the beginning that Shelby and Zach had to give up the son that they had when they were teenagers. While it was the right thing to do at the time, it doesn’t come at a regret. It causes big tension and problems for them, especially what happened in the year that followed. I wished we could have seen that reunion between Samuel and his parents because without a doubt it would have brought me to tears. I always cry when I see those reunion shows on TV.
Speaking of crying, that dedication at the beginning of the book, yeah it’s going to bring you to tears so be prepared for that because I definitely was not.
“Then why did you marry her?” I ask, wondering if I’m really ready to go there with him, but it’s too late to change my mind. The question is out, and as much as I don’t want to know the answer, I need to know the answer.
“I wanted my kids to have what I didn’t. I believed that, with time, we could find a way to be happy.”
“Maybe we shouldn’t talk about this,” I say, changing my mind as nausea and jealousy turn my stomach.
“You loved your ex, baby. I know you did. I didn’t have that. I wanted it but never had it with her or anyone else since you.”
“Please stop.” Feeling tears burn the back of my eyes for him, I close them tight. Max and I were happy and in love in the beginning, and I hate knowing Zach never had that… the kids didn’t see or feel that.
“I wish my past didn’t hurt you so much. I’m sorry for hurting you the way I have. If I could take your pain away, I would.” He gathers me against him and tucks my head under his chin.
“As sad as it makes me, I wish you would have had that with her or someone else,” I say, and his arms tighten so much that my lungs compress.
“I don’t,” he growls.
“What?” I wheeze, and he loosens his grip just enough for me to take a breath.
“I don’t want to think about what would have happened if I had been with her or someone else when you came back. I don’t want to face that demon inside of me that knows what I would have done.”
“I’ve been in love with you for almost eighteen years. I carried your missing pieces around inside me for that long, Shelby. I know it would have made me an asshole, but there is only one you. You’re the only place I’ve ever called home.” His voice is thick with emotion, and that wound inside of me fills up a little bit more. I hate his words, but a part of me is relieved he feels that way, that he feels so deeply for me.
“There’s been a wide open space inside me since we placed Samuel and I left you behind. But, from the moment I came back, it’s slowly been filling up.”
He goes quiet at my words. Several moments pass before he speaks again. “One day, that space will be full. I swear, with everything I have in me, I will make sure it’s overflowing and that you never feel empty again.”
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About the Author
Aurora Rose Reynolds is a navy brat who’s husband served in the United States Navy. She has lived all over the country but now resides in New York City with her Husband and pet fish. She’s married to an alpha male that loves her as much as the men in her books love their women. He gives her over the top inspiration everyday. In her free time she reads, writes and enjoys going to the movies with her husband and cookie. She also enjoys taking mini weekend vacations to nowhere, or spends time at home with friends and family. Last but not least she appreciates everyday and admires it’s beauty.
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